How do you sleep when the brilliant, blistering sun is shining overhead
         how do you cry when the rain is pelting, bruising your precious face
          how do you treat a burn when you’re constantly playing with fire
          how do you break someone’s heart
                  when you yourself are still helplessly broken hearted
How do you pick the right words to say
         when deep down you know that no matter what that product will always be the same:
                   suffering
how do you push someone away
        without exterminating every bit of spirit they have
        without making yourself seem insensitive and cruel
How do you become someone’s friend without them getting the wrong idea
         without them wanting more
         without there being hateful tension lingering in the air
getting trapped inside your throat
         without you choking on uneasy guilt
How do you escape someone who’s smothering you
        who’d kill to be with you
        who just won’t leave you alone
how do you escape a nightmare
         of someone who thinks rejection is acceptance
              who mistakes unconditional love with neglect and need
how do you escape them
         without damaging their souls more than they already are
How do you tell someone you don’t love them
         when you can’t get the person you love
                   to love you
how could you possibly make someone cry
                                when you cry, alone and desperate every night
What do you do when the one you want to hold
          doesn’t save you from this monster
what will you do when the monster would die
          before letting someone else hold you close
what will you do when the monster only terrifies you
          causing sporadic breathing
           causing you to think
                         that you’ll do
anything
to make his face fade away
    like an atrocious nightmare
How do you let yourself get to the point
          where you want to break their heart
           if that’ll mean they’ll leave you alone
you just want to go back to the way things were
       when you were trying to escape
        horrible heartache
        immense sorrow
and
        the most intense, indescribable loneliness
not someone who loves you
      to the point you wish  
that they would only hate you.